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Another awful weekend..

Really awful, at this moment when i think of it, my life havent been any different, also the expendable option of everyone..

Its like everyone can just pick me and throw when they wan and when they wish.. I am always the person to blame, the person that nvr been appreciate.. It suck really bad , why do world have to make me adapt it then break it into pieces again

Pathetic

i guess no one really will read anything here,

so here goes my terrible english...

i just wanna lay a question, how would u feel when u give all u had for something u cherish the most and yet the opposite always mention "i dun feel love from u , i feel i am like nothing at all"

is always easy to feel greedy to be love , and to be care but a phrase like that for someone that truly cherish u , they will break down

i always having this issue where ppl always think i dun give a fucking care about them

one of the most obvious happening is when Ken ask me "are u christian?"

i say "yes"

he replied " Do u go church ? Do u very into christian ?"

i say "yes"

and then he give me a reaction and said " Other than a bible in ur car, u dun look anyhow and i hardly believe u are Christian "

at that moment i felt , it was not how u are being judge by ur action ...

at a point i feel ur aura or impression give others how u see stuff...

you will always be the one that doing the bad stuff, and ppl always intend to freak out when u care too much

is like " wow! aaron actually so serious about it,

wow! nvr thought aaron can do something so cool " when u are just repeating doing something everyday ..the problem just no one really notice...

i wont boost around saying i do cherish a lot of thing...

but the world have to be fair to me, i aint a heartless freak over here...

there is a lot of thing i cherish , but yet the one u love the most always tend to find it hard to believe when u throw it into their face.. it is not they dun feel it.. they DUN BELIEVE!!

whenever u are trying to mention to ppl , "WOW, you actually care a lot!!!"

to be honest , it is a disgrace for ppl like us more than a compliment...

i am in such situation now where my heart and my effort tend to become a zero commitment in other ppl live,

my parents wont think i give a damn , my love always claiming i had not give enough...

i just dun feel i have anymore left when I GIVE IT MY ALL!!!

i have no one to talk to , no one to share but this pathetic blog,

i really hate this world for giving all the best to ppl that always got love,

yet ppl like us .. we are just low level... its like we are forever in a bad position to say we did stuff really good..

main point.. the moment we wan love... ppl tend to say stuff like " u already got so much from us!!! "

i will sweat a moment and feel like walking off, its so funny

its like i am shit that i dun deserve anything at all..

and eventually whatever i have now, i can proudly tell ppl i owe it with my best effort...

ppl that really knows me knows i care too much for others, while my own love wan...

is the totally opposite of that...

pathetic, i would say i am pathetic,,,

just freaking pathetic....

Regret

I did the most regretful thing in my life and amending wrong is such a hurt to my beloved.. I wan to mark my mistake here and to let myself remember this mistake !! I will turn a new leaf! I will make her happy

Work Like a slut!!

This boss is the worst case scenario!!
Meeting nvr ending.. Meeting produce workload and workload cannot finish due to meeting...

原来爱情那么难

為什麼愛會下起雨來
為什麼我們 越走越散
為什麼笑 有點不自然
為什麼 我的愛 有點不安

眼淚排山倒海再抵擋不了傷害
我們的 愛結束在這個夜晚
春夏 冬暖 多需要有你的陪伴
此刻我一個人習慣孤單
愛最痛的 呼喊是不能夠再重來
多年後 我卻牢牢記在腦海
幸福再來 我依然會充滿期待
找回愛最初的幸福港灣

眼淚排山倒海再抵擋不了傷害
我們的 愛結束在這個夜晚
快樂 太難 太心酸 我才發現了孤單
原來 愛情真那麼難
原來 愛情那麼難

Dedicated to you *my reverie*

Alright this is what I'm gonna do. People says that my blog is boring, indeed, it is...only a place for me to express my feelings, to rant about my dissatisfaction and my viewpoint. But today, with all my creativity (I hope) I would want to include in some pictures, not just mere pictures i mind you, these are my V.I.P.s ( very important person, very interesting peeps)...

What more, but to begin this with my only one. Specially for you my reverie.

Nothing more I could describe about you but to say that you are really special to me in some way or another. And my heartfelt gratitude to say "thank you" for :

1.) Loving me, of course
2.) For giving me an unforgettable first date ( it is indeed mind blowing and dead romantic...teehee)
3.) Being my friend
4.) Understanding me
5.) Taking care of me when I'm sick ( for coming all the way to buy me a very-very-nice-but-could-not-finish porridge)
6.) Being there for me when I teared
7.) For respecting me
8.) For making me smile
9.) For worrying about me (it shows how much you really cared)
10.) For the mp3!!!! ( omg, it's a red color, and my fav color! awww....and you know that I can't live without a single minute without musics)
11.) For accepting me and all my weaknesses
12.) For being a father-like to me
13.) and For giving me HOPE.

Because Love never fails. Hope does not disappoint.
I would hold on to them, till I could finally say, " we've made it".


Quoted from her blog....
*I wish she will tell me all over again...*