thoughts

I believe when human is born, they come to this world alone before being taken by their parents..

so at certain time, no matter how grown up a baby is.. no matter how much they changed into a full grown adult which have tremendous mind.. they still couldnt run away from their own personality of all human being have in common.. that is ..its the most comfortable being alone...

yes, pregnant mother nurture the seed of life which is why it show the baby is not alone..

but just to be frank.. i dun think the baby inside the body of a female actually knew anything

they can just doze off and sleep for a long nine months 24/7...

the womb have already become so comfortable that it affect them no matter wat they have in future.. the best thing is just to be inside ur own world.. and doze off..

i dun really find out so much till i really experienced it this days.. many thing been jamming me and here and there..and i almost lose my mind ...for a long moment i thought it is my failure and also my immature that brough this chaos to myself..

when thing gone out of control, i desperately look for a way that is quite rare for me ...

to be completely alone ...not a day .. just for few minutes.. and actually i realize ..human being dun exactly have 1 second of lonely time.. when ur brain is jammed with even a 1 bit of data.. u are not in peace and not in alone state...

i finally able to destroy even a single bit and manage to stay calm .. just like a baby in a womb.. that is just so wonderful.. its like u are existing in a world that everything stop.. and everything is so calm and peaceful.. that is life...

later on ... bit to be destroy need to be reconstruct.. during that state.. constructing data is not exactly a hard job.. because i experience when u are in the womb state.. human tend to have their concentration increase to a thousand times.. no distraction, no noise, no feel, simply just concentration that is freaking strong~~

suppose this blog is to say wat i have been through this week, but i thing i will keep it to myself.. and also person that i would like them to know...

end up , this post have become a place for it to remind me that.. i shud always loyal to my ownself.. be wat i feel the comfortable most... remind me the method to increase my ability in certain occasion where i cant handle..

last but not least, i realize human is just using their thought to a low percentage.. i somehow able to see the potent energy in me... able does not mean it is going to happen always or i am going to be a superman... its rare.. i am fortunate to keep track of it..

i will not forget the me yesterday , and cant wait for the next moment of me~