Career Future Success

Ok..one post before i really need to sleep..for tomorro work

well..yue ying come over my house in the morning to tell me bout a way to success in life..

as always i feel it is interesting, easy and guarantee will success

and after she is gone..i am still fancinating what will i do when i success with lots of cash in hand

it is excited ...it is really excited..that i non stop thinking bout it..day and night..not really night..but for long time...

AFTER that..i will be starting to think ..will i be dumb to do that???is that what i am good in ??is that for sure success??can i endure my reputation being step flat when i fail to archieve???and i of coz becoming moody ,emotion gone wrong..

i took out my handphont..sms yue ying.."hold the form, i need to think over again.."

it always happen .. from yap howe case till now..i do not know how do i step a way to success..

a step that require strength , passion , endurance and dedication..of coz included courage..

i had too much to worry about..i have fail too much ..from losing lot of glory in youth due to my lack in passion and the ability to think further..able to stand where i am now..is barely just enough for me to survive as a human with reputation and honour..i do not have the courage to step forward and take what i had now to bet ...i am unable to lose..

i am always hoping i could go through a life that is normal..but being normal is not what normal person need..greed and curious for power always make us move forward..but thats the problem it have that make me cant adapt to the speed and the reality situation..

i just wan to live like i am now..