Merry Christmas

26 of December , 20 days after the last post even though i swear i will update it more often.
sorry guys ..i am still in holiday and gaming mood..well its a good start because i am setling down queit a bit..but still i wonder anyone will read this..haha..

tonight..a night of christmas, a night of lot reason ..some say jesus birthday and some say santa clause finally earn billion and giving out present day... but whatever it is..its still a great day..




its day u can celebrate with anyone..family, relative, friends and also love ones...it is a time u think back what u did for the whole year since its coming to an end..and a week more its another +1 for the current year...first and foremost i wish everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS and may everything holy bless u for ur coming year~~~(as if anyone reading it)



today i have a so called discusion with her, it not good to refer her using her name.. i will just call her CHUBBY ...well i always understand myself...i am not very loner..but still a loner... i am an being that need time for my own.. a time i can do what i wan ..and accomplish my goal whether it is important or not...well i found that CHUBBY have been too sticky with me that i starting to lose myself..or i should be more specifically ...losing my privacy

well its always ok at the first time..because u will endure just like a rubber band..but when time come to time..endure added with past endure..the rubber could not stretch anymore ..i feel it is right to voice it out so we will not end up with a SNAP that might hurt someone and also yourself...

i do not know how the discussion look like..because i am the one that being blah blah blah and she just keep queit..i do not know whether she understand what i really need but her face is giving me *after all i had done ..u trying to say all this piece of hurtful word* faces or in short TULAN!!!...which obviouly not my main intention to hurt her..or shud i say i never want to hurt anybody thats why i comment it out right????

let see..is it wrong to voice out how uncomfortable they are living with someone??? i mean everyone is unique..we have a different background and also way of living thats what build who we are and the onli unique from forest beast..everyone said man is from mars ...woman is from venus..we are 2 diff creature so we cant blend together..but it is the universe rule we have to be living together to make more generation..so to blend and unblendable thing really need tons and good skill..skill of coz refer to COMMUNICATION...

from the discussion just now ...maybe is not right on christmas dinner since everyone is having a romantic feel ..but i wan to be honest..i feel it is hardly to sit down to talk about how our relation have been progressing..i hope during this important day ...we will resolve everything to truly face the new coming year..beside it dun really matter..my ex break up with me during my birthday ...just imagine how i could i EVER forget about the incident..and this discussion is for future and for us!!!!!

once my fren told me if u cant blend it and let it go..i cant ..i am so into this relationship that i am drowning inside the blend and hope to be blended..but i cant work it alone...i just hope CHUBBY will understand that we were still young ..and passion goal oftern circulate our amazing brain..give some time and let it go..goal is a job ..love is like house...job is a must..we cant throw it away..but after every single day of job..all we need is a sweet home that give us another passion to work another day...

if a partner is able to understand and support in whatever i do ..i will take her more seriously and she will always be my sweetest throught life...

CHUBBY i hope u understand it...why i am not telling her face to face???

well i dont have balls to say it..its not easy to tell this much to her

u know girls...they are not tame most of the time... :) they are beast!!!hahha

well..it just some random post...more serious and interesting will be coming..
i am still progressing my more interesting part

good night and merry christmas...