Used to it

A typical couple were having a conversation in a shopping mall

Female : would u stop looking at those gadget??what so interesting about it? can we move on??
Male : sorry about that..i do not know what u like..then lets go and see soemthing u like..

soon ..both of them visited fashion and cosmetic stall..

Male : i am boring..can we move on ??what so interesting about it??
Female : would u mind not being so blabering about this.. cant u just like what i love??


i once heard from my friend that i am someone that rather sacrifice myself to fulfill others need.. eventhough above story is just another fiction story..but it happen something like that in my life.. it is not being perasan i said i am so good because i sacrifice.. but i just want to talk about is that thing start to affecting how i felt..maybe i do not wan stuff to continue this way..or maybe i am tiring of thinking of others..especially no one appreciated what u did for them.. and i really lack of the time i should think more about me..and being selfish..

why i am complaining now??maybe i am getting used to ..getting used to let ppl priority goes first ..but soon when thing go longer..people also "used to " how they being treaten and take this point as their advantages toward me

"u never did this to me before" when i refuse
"u had changed" when i resist
"i know u dun take us as fren anymore "when i tell them what i need from them ..
this is all the words coming out from people that is "used to " my past treatment..

what bout the past? after all i did they expect me to still treat them like kind and queen..
the moment they thing i change..why cant they take a second and ask themself whether they could able to do the same...??
the moment they said i dun take them as fren anymore..dont they think what i did for them in past is not so-called fren???

confussion.

i am heart broken..really hurt
with words..with action..with heart of people that i look high upon
look upon wont be getting treating like now..
but things have to be move on ...
if believe u are a mistake..then i should just wipe off my mistake
and learn from it ..to never repeat the mistake..

everytime occasion like that happen ..i will thought
thought fren that is sincere to me..but lack of my attention to them ...
i will learn to give what i can to people that really deserve..not onli in relation..
but also to society...