Getting A Life..

hhaa..i am laughing at my last post when i promise that i will be blogging again..but well this post for so much later than it expected to be...

i do not know why i blog in sudden at the time like this..but well , just hear me crap for a while..

i went G2 for some supervisor training, Yes i am a supervisor now after taking several job for them and i wasnt expected for this promotion but well, i get it. The first moment i saw the person who train me..i thought she will say "congratulation, u are now a supervisor rank in our company!" BUT.....she said something that i last expected "i heard of ur record, and mostly negative..i hope u will improve when u are a supervisor" ......seriously i was =.= ..i know there is wrong but i still dun get it why they call me to be a supervisor when i have a negative record.. well at least the pay is good and have to accept this kinda word i have to accept as i really need to continue so i could pay my bills..

i have been staying in nilai hostel for a month now, actually it does not seem to be that bad everyone think it is..i finally found a plce of zen..where i have my own world and my peace at there..i do not need to follow order or get affected by others..and i able to learn the way toward independence and become a better one..i feel this is the feeling i hope to get always..it is so comfortable that i do not realize a week had pass and i got to go home during weekend :P

exam and assignment is packing and coming, uni life is not as easy as college..it tons more pressure and dicispline than how i used to be... i guess i really need to motivate myself to suit it in quick and fast or i will be left out really soon enough

when so much thing come toward me in work and study ..i of coz suffered a major breakdown in term of physical and mentally.. i feel so tired yet i need to go on...because there is no turning back.. but i felt the worst thing of all.. i am walking on my own.. without the help of companion i feel the weight of burden is getting me off the road..i lost direction ..i do not who to talk too.. maybe thats the onli reason i feel like blogging..i once told zhen cui that i do not dare to blog because sometimes things is so personal that i try not to let anyone know how i think and feel..
but i suppose i give it a shot ..maybe it help to reduce wat i felt now...

indeed..i do feel good..haha

have to prepare to go class and go back my place of zen ...
see you...