New Year

now is 1.36 am of 31st December 2007...the last day of year 2007.. i have not know what await me for upcoming year..but i had a bad swollen leg and pain every where due to work..but yesterday was my last day..so i got some relieve...

well in year 2008 ..i can say ..i am getting not that good..from observation my friends got lesser, if it is not lesser then it will be not that close anymore.. i called a fren of mine which will be leaving to australia in 9 hours time.. i dunno she felt it or not..but i feel total stranger with her.. which is a bad thing..and this is onli an example out of many many others i encounter

resolution of coming year..i have been giving up on relation ..instead i will start to work out on my goal since relation could not able to shake me off too breaking down.. maybe i will work it out but through new relation and not mending out relation.. in short LET IT BE ~~~~LIKE I CARE!!! whatever~~~ hahah..so sissy..

well..thats my life..i cant denied i am not doing a very good part of myself..but still since it happen i will have to accept what i ready for me and what i deserve.. so i will do better in coming years.. think far..do far and stop imagining tiny little things which dun do much effect anymore...
just being original and the old me... hehehe

thats all for tonight..wish everyone happy new year!!!!

this is an odd and cant understand post..heheh

Career Future Success

Ok..one post before i really need to sleep..for tomorro work

well..yue ying come over my house in the morning to tell me bout a way to success in life..

as always i feel it is interesting, easy and guarantee will success

and after she is gone..i am still fancinating what will i do when i success with lots of cash in hand

it is excited ...it is really excited..that i non stop thinking bout it..day and night..not really night..but for long time...

AFTER that..i will be starting to think ..will i be dumb to do that???is that what i am good in ??is that for sure success??can i endure my reputation being step flat when i fail to archieve???and i of coz becoming moody ,emotion gone wrong..

i took out my handphont..sms yue ying.."hold the form, i need to think over again.."

it always happen .. from yap howe case till now..i do not know how do i step a way to success..

a step that require strength , passion , endurance and dedication..of coz included courage..

i had too much to worry about..i have fail too much ..from losing lot of glory in youth due to my lack in passion and the ability to think further..able to stand where i am now..is barely just enough for me to survive as a human with reputation and honour..i do not have the courage to step forward and take what i had now to bet ...i am unable to lose..

i am always hoping i could go through a life that is normal..but being normal is not what normal person need..greed and curious for power always make us move forward..but thats the problem it have that make me cant adapt to the speed and the reality situation..

i just wan to live like i am now..

Merry Christmas

26 of December , 20 days after the last post even though i swear i will update it more often.
sorry guys ..i am still in holiday and gaming mood..well its a good start because i am setling down queit a bit..but still i wonder anyone will read this..haha..

tonight..a night of christmas, a night of lot reason ..some say jesus birthday and some say santa clause finally earn billion and giving out present day... but whatever it is..its still a great day..




its day u can celebrate with anyone..family, relative, friends and also love ones...it is a time u think back what u did for the whole year since its coming to an end..and a week more its another +1 for the current year...first and foremost i wish everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS and may everything holy bless u for ur coming year~~~(as if anyone reading it)



today i have a so called discusion with her, it not good to refer her using her name.. i will just call her CHUBBY ...well i always understand myself...i am not very loner..but still a loner... i am an being that need time for my own.. a time i can do what i wan ..and accomplish my goal whether it is important or not...well i found that CHUBBY have been too sticky with me that i starting to lose myself..or i should be more specifically ...losing my privacy

well its always ok at the first time..because u will endure just like a rubber band..but when time come to time..endure added with past endure..the rubber could not stretch anymore ..i feel it is right to voice it out so we will not end up with a SNAP that might hurt someone and also yourself...

i do not know how the discussion look like..because i am the one that being blah blah blah and she just keep queit..i do not know whether she understand what i really need but her face is giving me *after all i had done ..u trying to say all this piece of hurtful word* faces or in short TULAN!!!...which obviouly not my main intention to hurt her..or shud i say i never want to hurt anybody thats why i comment it out right????

let see..is it wrong to voice out how uncomfortable they are living with someone??? i mean everyone is unique..we have a different background and also way of living thats what build who we are and the onli unique from forest beast..everyone said man is from mars ...woman is from venus..we are 2 diff creature so we cant blend together..but it is the universe rule we have to be living together to make more generation..so to blend and unblendable thing really need tons and good skill..skill of coz refer to COMMUNICATION...

from the discussion just now ...maybe is not right on christmas dinner since everyone is having a romantic feel ..but i wan to be honest..i feel it is hardly to sit down to talk about how our relation have been progressing..i hope during this important day ...we will resolve everything to truly face the new coming year..beside it dun really matter..my ex break up with me during my birthday ...just imagine how i could i EVER forget about the incident..and this discussion is for future and for us!!!!!

once my fren told me if u cant blend it and let it go..i cant ..i am so into this relationship that i am drowning inside the blend and hope to be blended..but i cant work it alone...i just hope CHUBBY will understand that we were still young ..and passion goal oftern circulate our amazing brain..give some time and let it go..goal is a job ..love is like house...job is a must..we cant throw it away..but after every single day of job..all we need is a sweet home that give us another passion to work another day...

if a partner is able to understand and support in whatever i do ..i will take her more seriously and she will always be my sweetest throught life...

CHUBBY i hope u understand it...why i am not telling her face to face???

well i dont have balls to say it..its not easy to tell this much to her

u know girls...they are not tame most of the time... :) they are beast!!!hahha

well..it just some random post...more serious and interesting will be coming..
i am still progressing my more interesting part

good night and merry christmas...

NewBlog NewWord NewMe

Hey to everyone..for my last blog existing visitor or maybe new visitor (which is quite impossible) this is it...the new and i confirm much more better blog..i am passionate to make this page lot nicer and cooler than the previous wan

since i am still constructing this bloggy ...

then i take this as the topic for today... if u do not realize the blog name call "me love moon" if u are uneducated..it mean "i suka bulan" in malay hahahah(i know is lame ..forgive me ) ..so moon will be the title..

MOoN.. commom sense..something that evolve our planet earth everyday or i mean everytime
dunno since when i seem to fall in love in this thing call moon ...some incident happen make me relate myself between earth and moon..of coz i am not that young to claim i love moon due to sailormoon right~~~hehehe..

what the fuck..this look like rain man

revolving circle.. revolving hope
i know moon dun do it on perpose but still bringing light to everyone of us during night..indicate someone around always giving hope and help toward us at the time of dark or down..
being the state alone in the dark is really bad , no matter how tough someone is ..without sight in dark just like being helpless when trouble occur..
conclusion ...i take moon as guardian angel and appear onli when we need it ..really need it ~~~

that is the conclusion of the blog name and also the blog title..
looking at the moon nowadays give me the feeling of warm and chill..
looking at it ..letting me know that light is eaten at the deep dark of light..
so when any soul drop deep into the dark...light is always be there..to help us...

i know is like being so lame talking bout crap like this..but it open up my heart each time..
that influence what i am ..who i am ...and what my future will be
since this is the first post...let take this as a advice for ppl in trouble
and give a slightly warm up to everyone reading it..
hehehe