Used to it

A typical couple were having a conversation in a shopping mall

Female : would u stop looking at those gadget??what so interesting about it? can we move on??
Male : sorry about that..i do not know what u like..then lets go and see soemthing u like..

soon ..both of them visited fashion and cosmetic stall..

Male : i am boring..can we move on ??what so interesting about it??
Female : would u mind not being so blabering about this.. cant u just like what i love??


i once heard from my friend that i am someone that rather sacrifice myself to fulfill others need.. eventhough above story is just another fiction story..but it happen something like that in my life.. it is not being perasan i said i am so good because i sacrifice.. but i just want to talk about is that thing start to affecting how i felt..maybe i do not wan stuff to continue this way..or maybe i am tiring of thinking of others..especially no one appreciated what u did for them.. and i really lack of the time i should think more about me..and being selfish..

why i am complaining now??maybe i am getting used to ..getting used to let ppl priority goes first ..but soon when thing go longer..people also "used to " how they being treaten and take this point as their advantages toward me

"u never did this to me before" when i refuse
"u had changed" when i resist
"i know u dun take us as fren anymore "when i tell them what i need from them ..
this is all the words coming out from people that is "used to " my past treatment..

what bout the past? after all i did they expect me to still treat them like kind and queen..
the moment they thing i change..why cant they take a second and ask themself whether they could able to do the same...??
the moment they said i dun take them as fren anymore..dont they think what i did for them in past is not so-called fren???

confussion.

i am heart broken..really hurt
with words..with action..with heart of people that i look high upon
look upon wont be getting treating like now..
but things have to be move on ...
if believe u are a mistake..then i should just wipe off my mistake
and learn from it ..to never repeat the mistake..

everytime occasion like that happen ..i will thought
thought fren that is sincere to me..but lack of my attention to them ...
i will learn to give what i can to people that really deserve..not onli in relation..
but also to society...

Fortunate

sorry to every reader..due to chinese new year..i been in quite a rush to everything .. from eating to travelling..back to stuying and also exam..have to mention about meeting up with couple of fren before they going back to their studies in the another continent..



well..finally i am able to sit and blog about what happen...

hehehe...this chinese new year never really let me down though..

on 7 ..i went to penang...its been 3 years since the last time i went there..and penang never fail to entertain me..the perfect place to have vacation.. good food..nice beach ..nice watersport( i bang a girl with my butt while landing from my parashoot*it is not right spelling..but u know it* )



overall..it a great family vacation..and i total relax and enjoy life there...and this place might be my permanent place of staying..this is a not confirm matter..but if does..will talk about it here soon



after coming back from penang..relatife been visiting here and there.. the main factor i am saying that this chinese new year is so much better is because it is not as dull as previous year..we dinner and dinner and gathering and dinner.so much that i lost count..its busy but its wonderful seeing cousin grow and find out what been through this whole year..



today is the last day of chinese new year.. really miss it..and a few days later everyone will be doing their business..becasuse work an study should be starting and i have the last semester project to be done.. here is some picture that sum out what have been happening this period i am not blogging..hope i am forgiven and u enjoy!!!

dinner on chinese new year eve

sorry readers..my laptop is off battery and i do not have the charger with me

i will update picture the next post

sorry~~~~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

i wish readers here *if there are any* a very very very blesfull

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

MAY THE YEAR OF RAT BRING U INFINITY OF GOOD HEALTH AND WEALTH!!

GONG XI FA CAI!!!!

Enormous(is that how is spell??)

Oh my god..

Am i gaining more than enormous weight???