i had nothing at all~

sometimes i also need to be pamper...

why cant someone just let me release..

why whenever its obviously i wan u to cheer u up..

u not gonna do it??

now..here i am

smoking again... why is it ciggarette became my dearest

when i already had u ~~~

Dissapointed

i dislike ppl saying they are dissapointed to me

I ALREADY DID MY BEST!!!

WAT U ALL WAN FROM ME!!

"i am dissapointed of u "

IT IS A SENTENCE ENOUGH TO LET ME HAVE A CHEST PAIN

DO U KNOW HOW HURT IT IS??

U ARE DIGGING ALL MY PAST!! ALL MY SADNESS!!

U MAKE ME THIS BIG MAN WANTED TO CRY SO MUCH~~~

plz...its a harsh word~~~

arh!!!~~~~

Arrogant me~

how long since i ever have a feeling of unable to resolve wat i really wanted
its been long long long since i can remember..

like wise says , wat u gain is same with wat u lost , everything comes in a round, whether clockwise
or anti-clockwise, sweet first pain later, or even pain first sweet later.. every sacrifice u did come with the same amount of gain u get~ and every benefit u got is no different with how much u are going to pay for it..

actually, i expected something is gonna happen and thing will become very rough.. but it just a lack of readyness to prepare for it.. new stuff, new experience, problem thats nvr been touch in ur life time.. it do not make me curious anymore, it make me fear them, avoid them, or even forget about it...

why and how had it been that way? i would like to know..but its not a matter of that.. its a matter of every problems need a solution, and a solution of problems nvr gonna be easy to be found out~

so wat u do? skip it or come back to it later~
hmmm.. ppl thinks that i shud concentrate on the very first problem that occur
but now..i would like to be a bit arrogant... and doing stuff ppl usually do in exam hall

skip and come back later~~

Be Strong

i would say i have a shock last night..
maybe i am not prepared for this...
eventhough i could understand why she is acting like that
she been through too much.. too much that even myself couldnt step into her world
her shoes..to understand her life..

i do not have the right to spill her with all the wisdom words
because even myself wasnt in the position to say so..
me too have a tradegy of past that i need to overcome..
life is indeed tough.. some ppl suffer less, some people suffer more
but is a sure thing everyone do suffer from their corner of their world..

but it have been more clearer that i shud overcome watever i had been through
so i could throw it aside and help the one i love to step back to a better self
and gain happiness..

i love u .. plz dun hurt urself..as it hurt it real back to me...