drop

wat does it feel for someone that drop from a very high to the very deep down..
i seen bungy jumping or any other sport that related to High to low..
but i guess the most worst of this stuff is mentally u thought u are top of the world
but when the next second u been pull down to the deepest core of ur heart...

it is really.............. unable to decribable pain....


when u thought u are getting promoted, u got demoted instead at the announcement
u thought u are having a great leisure, u got debt instead at the next moment
u thought u are doing pretty well in exam, u got fail instead when result release

all this is just life.. i have beed through up and down oftenly and it usually made us stronger and muvh endurance toward the other drop..

we must always prepare to drop and always be ambitious to stand back up again...

this is a post i dun write for anyone to know..but for me myself...
i am drop down in a deep dissapointed..but i guess.. with this post , i am able to boost me up and face the other drop that is soon coming....

tadah,

life isnt fair

current emotion is very not well
this time i feel others.. i am being sync with someone that is being so harsh toward themself
the usual me will just give them a slap and called them to wake up!
but this case resist myself not to do that...

because..i couldnt understand well wat had she suffer from..
i could no longer say..i understand how u feel..

its sucks..sometimes i felt the world is not fair enough
why is somebody have to suffer another diff lvl of suckness that will make them lost the path ..
its right we shud be tough and shud be rough to face obstacle..
but isnt that a bit too much??...
i just dun get it..for the very first time..i pitied someone..pitied for being brought up in an environment that greatly destroy..in a surrounding close person that nvr is close toward their heart...

its all by herself..and all by her alone...
even i couldnt say that i am by her side... she endure something that i nvr tried..something that i dun dare to tried..something that i will wish my life would not ever get it...

life isnt fair...that is my line for now..i really hope i could help this little girl..become someone she really wan..someone she really happy of..someone that will make her feel alive..someone that will make her think that dead is a fearful incident

but i could onli look by far... and react nothing..

i feel like a total loser...

but its no longer my feel that is concern..
i just hope she is blessed and someone grant me the wisdom to make her realize...
to make her jump out of the dark cave...
i am really really really feeling terrible for someone the first time..
and i hope she will be much better...

may everyone bless her..