Rain

my current feeling is like how the whether outside..raining heavily
beside being how the heart rain..it also include lot of taste of emotion ...
when everything going to an extreme stage..i feel like dropping a few tears of rain
because my heart could no longer be able to withstand the huge impact brought by rain

i would like to express how i feel right now..but i believe no words could describe
how i in sudden have an unlimited hate towards my existence..my present..and my incomfortable...



answers is all i need..but some question demand courage to tell ..and not all question is reply
with a convincing answer..without a convincing answer..is also a factor we do not question.. resulting lack of answers...
rain is suppose to end at some time...but constant increasing numbers of raining is not much different with raining forver.. might be even worst
imagine ...being give hope while getting destroy in mid second..
getting luck that later on be subtitute by double unluck..
cure by massive heart break ...and later on break into pieces..
its someting similar ...



is that how life are suppose to be start and be process ??
if life is suppose to be ended this way...is my life going to end soon??
there is so much of miracle in life...
but some person will not be able to see miracle for one second sight...
is it suppose to be balance for everyone??if yes ..why am i dropping much deeper to the dark side???



i love to see light..i love to see shine..i love to see miracle

but all i see is constant raining in me..and the decrease in hope of ending the massive rain...

i love to see the sun...but can i?

Used to it

A typical couple were having a conversation in a shopping mall

Female : would u stop looking at those gadget??what so interesting about it? can we move on??
Male : sorry about that..i do not know what u like..then lets go and see soemthing u like..

soon ..both of them visited fashion and cosmetic stall..

Male : i am boring..can we move on ??what so interesting about it??
Female : would u mind not being so blabering about this.. cant u just like what i love??


i once heard from my friend that i am someone that rather sacrifice myself to fulfill others need.. eventhough above story is just another fiction story..but it happen something like that in my life.. it is not being perasan i said i am so good because i sacrifice.. but i just want to talk about is that thing start to affecting how i felt..maybe i do not wan stuff to continue this way..or maybe i am tiring of thinking of others..especially no one appreciated what u did for them.. and i really lack of the time i should think more about me..and being selfish..

why i am complaining now??maybe i am getting used to ..getting used to let ppl priority goes first ..but soon when thing go longer..people also "used to " how they being treaten and take this point as their advantages toward me

"u never did this to me before" when i refuse
"u had changed" when i resist
"i know u dun take us as fren anymore "when i tell them what i need from them ..
this is all the words coming out from people that is "used to " my past treatment..

what bout the past? after all i did they expect me to still treat them like kind and queen..
the moment they thing i change..why cant they take a second and ask themself whether they could able to do the same...??
the moment they said i dun take them as fren anymore..dont they think what i did for them in past is not so-called fren???

confussion.

i am heart broken..really hurt
with words..with action..with heart of people that i look high upon
look upon wont be getting treating like now..
but things have to be move on ...
if believe u are a mistake..then i should just wipe off my mistake
and learn from it ..to never repeat the mistake..

everytime occasion like that happen ..i will thought
thought fren that is sincere to me..but lack of my attention to them ...
i will learn to give what i can to people that really deserve..not onli in relation..
but also to society...

Fortunate

sorry to every reader..due to chinese new year..i been in quite a rush to everything .. from eating to travelling..back to stuying and also exam..have to mention about meeting up with couple of fren before they going back to their studies in the another continent..



well..finally i am able to sit and blog about what happen...

hehehe...this chinese new year never really let me down though..

on 7 ..i went to penang...its been 3 years since the last time i went there..and penang never fail to entertain me..the perfect place to have vacation.. good food..nice beach ..nice watersport( i bang a girl with my butt while landing from my parashoot*it is not right spelling..but u know it* )



overall..it a great family vacation..and i total relax and enjoy life there...and this place might be my permanent place of staying..this is a not confirm matter..but if does..will talk about it here soon



after coming back from penang..relatife been visiting here and there.. the main factor i am saying that this chinese new year is so much better is because it is not as dull as previous year..we dinner and dinner and gathering and dinner.so much that i lost count..its busy but its wonderful seeing cousin grow and find out what been through this whole year..



today is the last day of chinese new year.. really miss it..and a few days later everyone will be doing their business..becasuse work an study should be starting and i have the last semester project to be done.. here is some picture that sum out what have been happening this period i am not blogging..hope i am forgiven and u enjoy!!!

dinner on chinese new year eve

sorry readers..my laptop is off battery and i do not have the charger with me

i will update picture the next post

sorry~~~~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

i wish readers here *if there are any* a very very very blesfull

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

MAY THE YEAR OF RAT BRING U INFINITY OF GOOD HEALTH AND WEALTH!!

GONG XI FA CAI!!!!

Enormous(is that how is spell??)

Oh my god..

Am i gaining more than enormous weight???

Mad Money

a few months ago..when i had suddenly lost interest in whatever i am doing .. my hobby and habit drastically changing and annoyed me..creating another me that was so boring person..i want to do something ..some entertainment..something to pass time... but i do not like what i always did in sudden..and out of no where..i becoming a movie fanatic.. i watch movieSSS.. like u never imagine..3 time a week and everytime outing ..a movie is a must now.. i do not know why ..maybe i am not young anymore*fcuk i am old* and suddenly a passion interest toward art which somehow end up on the many session on cinema chair...

well..with the experience like this..i can somehow called myself an movie critic i guess?? well, i am not being bossy or to show that i am rich in wasting money to GSC an TGV.. i also not trying to impress people that i manage to pass my test without studying eventhough is a final year..no i am not that kind of ppl ...

i just wan to share to everyone a good movie that might be worth watching..hehehe... hope u guys will like what i said.. ok..cut the crap and start it out..

the first review i am going to do is the not-so-popular movie called Mad Money..
lets me give u some introduction:
Academy Award® winner Diane Keaton (Something’s Gotta Give), Oscar® nominee Queen Latifah (Chicago) and Katie Holmes (Thank You for Smoking) star in Mad Money, a comedy about three ordinary women who form an unlikely friendship and decide to do something extraordinary—rob one of the most secure banks in the world. Mad Money is directed by Academy Award® winner Callie Khouri (screenwriter of Thelma and Louise, director of Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood), from a script by Glen Gers (Fracture). Bridget Cardigan (Diane Keaton) is shocked to learn that she is on the verge of losing her home and comfortable upper middle class lifestyle when her husband Don (Ted Danson) is downsized from his job. Armed only with a decades old English degree and years as a dedicated mother and corporate wife, Bridget is forced into the unfamiliar labor market with no job skills. Finally, she accepts the only position she can find— janitor at the Federal Reserve Bank. The one-time suburban mom soon discovers she has more in common with her new co-workers than she thought. Bridget forges an unexpected bond with Nina (Queen Latifah), a hard-working single mom with two kids to raise, and Jackie (Katie Holmes), an exuberant free spirit with nothing to lose. Caught up in a system that underestimates their talents and keeps their dreams just out of reach, Bridget, Nina and Jackie set out to even the score. After a lifetime of playing by the rules, the three devise a plan to smuggle soon-to-be destroyed currency out of the supposedly airtight Reserve. As the unlikely crime syndicate amasses piles of cash, it looks like they have pulled off the perfect crime—until a minor misstep alerts the authorities. With more money than they know what to do with, the women are pushed to the limits of their ingenuity to stay one step ahead of the law! --© Overture Films (YEAP...I DO NOT WRITE THIS)


as u see from the sysnopsis..it is about a few worker with a miserable life trying to set a perfect plan to rob the world bank .. what i could say about this movie it is hilarious and somehow interesting..the plot is ok ..the story is smooth..nothing sudden or too down going here and there..it make u feel interesting and capture ur attention ... (i almost piss her off while i am so paying attention because i ignore her when she trying to talk to me :P)

the 3 main actress.. (right)Diane Keaton,(mid)Queen Latifah and Katie Holmes(left)

diane keaton i swear i do not know who is she..but her character in the movie really amaze me..being in a veteran ..she still could adapt in what the movie really need..being the mastermind in robbing the bank ..she show how the char should be..with a skill like that.. she is deffinately a first class actor...i love her acting from the start to the end.. i obviously gonna give her a 5/5...

Queen latifah..all i ever seen her was in movie TAxi.. she being the tough taxi driver.. well in this movie..she again represent a tough woman trying to take what it takes for her beloved child..she do it good and i think is skill enough to act character like that... i love the part when the principle told her that they do not have financial assistant for her son.. she reply with saying she do not need it ..and she will pay by cash for the one year semester.. cool..

katie holmes..i remember and very familiar with her name*shit..i really need to remember the actors of all movies* but i cant picture her out..oh well..in this movie..she being a lunatic and naive woman..she do by order and she give out lot and lot of humourous scene that really crack me out..

in this movie..we can see different of aspect..in age of 3 females living in the reality society..in a organization that consist the brain and people that follow to gain success.. and also a society that shows woman could be able to do something extraordinary(their partner is all sissy in this movie).. with the combination of smooth plot, great actor, and the interesting meaning.. this movie really give me a good impression...i will give it a 4/5

i think everyone should watch this if u are reading this..because if u read my blog..means u like me..and u like what i like.. :P

thats all for my first review for the movie..sayonara...

* p.s...
a cold conversation with kat yee...
-AaroNKoK- says: hey hey
-AaroNKoK- says: how u doing dude
kat yee says: i;m not dude
-AaroNKoK- says: same larh
kat yee says: no
-AaroNKoK- says: why no leh?
kat yee says: i'm not dude
-AaroNKoK- says: you are dude!
kat yee says: NO
-AaroNKoK- says: why no leh?
kat yee says: i'm a girl
-AaroNKoK- says: sweat..i know larh ..

i do not know why there is so much repeatation in the conversation
i know it might not funny..
but when i read it twice
i think it is ..because i do not which of us is the jakun...

HI..i am back again !!!

hehehe..lucky i have not tell anyone about the existence of this blog..
i have not updated for one month sharp..
kekeke


something forever cant be change..my very lazinesssssss
a few years ago..my father go some temple and ask from some so-called guidance there and ask for guide for life
and that guidance actually commented i am lazy ..and is main obstacle for me to success in life
true...i couldnt denied that...
from studying to any other category ..i always fail..even i am not failing..i am so far from being excellent..
but in the end when i view my result..i voice to myself that it is due to my laziness
if i just work more average..i could work thing out..
i belive in my ability ..i believe my instinct ..but never push myself so hard for it to work out
half way giving up is always happening on something that i do not interested of coz..not all of it..
if i am really into something..people around me will deffinately open their eye wide big enough with the emotion of "wow.,,, he can do that???"




i am not being perasan here..but nobody and nothing could understand what i can archive more than i do ..
since it is my own blog..i dun think it is a stupid act to praise myself right???hahah
if it does..u will not wan to count how many blog is going close up ...kekek
day by day pass..and my activity getting lesser and lesser..
i shouldnt said it is boring..i do have activity..but i just not interested of joining..
i dun feel like..maybe is just that there is someone that i dun like to hang out with...
or maybe i just wan to hibernate alone..and facing the 14 inch computer monitor...



been really getting scold for facing the com 24/7 by respective party..but thats nothing i could do...serious..if i do not do this..what else do u offer that confirm will be much better than online ??



i am not saying online is the best to do..but i just think online 24/7 really get my life going..something i feel comfortable instead of doing something i am annoyed about it..
but i do not mind how they look at me..they dunno why i do this and that...
it is a two party responsible to do something..i shud also find stuff to overcome how i am doing now..because seriously ..it is not healthy..
for everyone that concern..i am going another big step to improve my health..i obey my promise and i act accordingly..if u can guess..yeap... I QUIT SMOKIN..



it is horrible determination to do that..u will never understand the feeling of open eye big big during the night craving for something u never miss out day and night..countless of sleepless eye..i finally could be able to sleep well forgetting something i so call it as chocolate bar heheheh...well i am not gonna force everyone to quit smoking..they know the bad side of it..and they know what are they doing as a teenager or an adult..if u ever need an advice how u do it???please dun ask me ...i cant answer u though...maybe the love to myself is getting stronger nowadays..

hahaha..crap!!!! ....thats all for the long post..will leave some picture for what have been happening..kekeke...

lim yong birthday celebration..i almost have a major accident while rushing there...
yi yean melody ashley depart to hawaii...my kindergarden fren till now..wow..been so long man
a night out to sky bar..never take the picture inside..because camera out of battery really fast..
singapore chinatown food..it is wonderful and memorable trip..will wan to go there again..

new year countdown in 1u ..with the every loving u ...i appreciated everytime u are there for me..

a group picture of ppl i been out often with ...they are cool..but i am coolest among them..haha trustme!!!