Desire

Recently there have been many thought jamming through my head..

i been wonder wat i have been archieving all this while...

i thought i did good..but onli when i leave my pathetic circle..i found out

actually everyone is doing so much better than me..

in term of handling themself.. i am still so far behind them..i feel like a kid again...

being pamper.. being spoon feed..being naive.. day by day..i become humble ..

do not wan to social..do not wan to care.. do not wan to let ppl know my thought..

fear of being laugh..being pointed to..being look down ..being a gossip target...

i always thought my live is as normal as others.. i deserve nothing more and i do not wan to complicated it...

but i am wrong..i do have a passion and desire inside me.. going to burn out ...

but i do not know where to start..how to do it..who to talk to ..

it does make my emotion and physically stress with all these tHinking..

i had a wrong thought of myself..i do not understand wat is my need and my likes..

i been drown into caring wat others tHink of me..and being a 3rd party ideally person...

i shud stand up.. being wat i am ..being who i am ...

i no longer want to live in a shadow ... not living under someone..but being someone... not fearing the dark..but be the dark... not being feed by the sun..but be the one that feed others...

good luck ..may the god bless me... i will now spread my wing...start my dream

~wing of desire~