last night.. i sleep a lot.. for me is a healthy sleep..
i realize i am picking myself little by little for just one day
i have a conversation with people around me
and i feel thing seem to be much and much more familiar..just like the way it used to be..
does human really have to drop to the lowest point before they realize the meaning of being themself..?


i am starting to think clear.. i am like a new paper.. empty and clean
starting to absorbing things i wan ..thing i really want to be fill in by me..the author..
i am starting to see hope.. start to believe in myself.. start to see how bright the sky..
to really feel that life can be really be so much better if i would just be right :)

i know i often say things like i am gonna be okay.. but this time.. i suppose thing have become really much more better... i start to feel tired.. not because of the stress..but is because i am able to relax and let go so much thing surrounding me.. i no longer mind what i had, what i want.. i just wan to enjoy the moment i am breathing and appreciatte people that do so much just for me..

i feel like i am just like a writer now, i just wan to write a good story.. a positive writer..
nvr feel sad or cry for thing i wrote wrong.. but just able to crumble the negative that i wrote..and write all over again.. all i wan is just to write a good story..for me , and people that will reading it as well~~

i feel so sleepy, i feel like smiling.. i feel i want thing to be better...i need to write a good story....

i just wan to enjoy life~